In life I think we are often surprised to find ourselves faced with certain struggles or even be suspicious when our life is amazing as if we are always waiting for our one "big" trial in life. I am feeling those things lately. Especially as the people around me and people I love are experiencing their own "big" life trial I keep waiting for mine to hit.
Today I learned that a little ten yr. old boy who just lost his mother to cancer walked in on his father dead. His father already had many complications. At first I felt doubt as though it wasn't real and then came anger and confusion.I still am in the anger and confusion stage, I just can't believe that our Father in heaven would do something like that to a little boy. I want to believe that it's fir his own good and that he will become stronger but that is just so hard. This also makes me appreciate the fact that I have two parents who are healthy and safe and love me more than anything. I just. Find myself wanting to be perfect so that I can be strong when my big trial comes. With problems like that little boys I have no reason to ever do anything wrong or complain. I guess everything in my life I am questioning right now. And the fact that I am doubting and confused seems so unbelievable.
