Have you ever thought that the things you think are the thoughts that make you think about thoughts about thinking?
Don't worry, I don't get it either. In fact I just made it up as I wrote it! But it got your brain flowing didn't it? That's all I need. Recently I have been reading a book about the teenage brain. This book talks about all sorts of ways our brain can make us teenagers do things that adults wouldn't normally do on impulse. For instance, yelling at our parents or even getting annoyed with a friend. When I first started reading the book I was expecting it to talk about all the things wrong with my brain but as I got farther into it I realize it's starting to defend teens, give us a
method to all our madness. Back to the impulse thing, I know fir a fact that half the way I act in life is in impulse. When I have conversations I am always on radar with myself to be sure I don't slip a rude or insulting comment. Just as in conversation I think watching our thoughts is just as important. My friend Kaylee always tell me that if you say and think your ugly then you may as well be. How true! And what a great example that is to my point; THOUGHTS CONTROL ACTIONS!
Whenever I think about something it typically cones true. If I say I'm going to get an A I do but it works the opposite way too. If I think that I will have a bad day at practice, I most likely do. As a teeneger Ive found that I act a lot less than I react, meaning I go off on impulse rather than thinking about and coming to a solution. Impulses I have been having lately are good ones. I have been trying to be a better version of me. Perhaps this is because I want to improve myself for God, perhaps I am improving myself for a crush, I'd perhaps I simply just want self contentment. To me, all three of those things are my main reasons to watch my thoughts and not react on impulse.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Happy Mothers Day
Happy Mothers Day everyone! Today Is mothers day. I want to record my feelings about my amazing mother and all she she does for me. I can't thank her enough for all that she does. All moms make sacrifices, especially my momma, she works so very hard so that I can have nice things. She only wants what's best for me and all though we don't always get along she has an unconditional love for me. I often think, What did I do to deserve such a good mom? And today I discovered the answer; I did nothing to deserve her. Today I found that I have an amazing mother as a gift from God. I Iearned that my mom is here to set an example for me and that it can be taken away. To me a mother is someone whom we love no matter what and some one who we want to make proud. A gift I want to give my momma this mothers day is not that of a material item, it's going to be me, living a kind Christ like life. I am going to make my mom feel good about herself knowing that all she has taught me has not gone to waste.
I love my Mom sooooooo much. It can be a struggle to show that love but I know she loves me right back and feels my love for her. The sacrifices my mother have made for me are ones I hope I can pay her back with giving to my future kids. We also celebrate this day for all the things are mothers teach us. If it weren't for these lessons I learn from my mommy I would not know how to act and prepare to be a mom someday. I try to be good and set a example for my kids watching me from Heaven. So THANK YOU MOMMA for every single thing you do for me! I wish everyday that I will someday be as amazing as you are. I love you mommy. Forever and Always
I love my Mom sooooooo much. It can be a struggle to show that love but I know she loves me right back and feels my love for her. The sacrifices my mother have made for me are ones I hope I can pay her back with giving to my future kids. We also celebrate this day for all the things are mothers teach us. If it weren't for these lessons I learn from my mommy I would not know how to act and prepare to be a mom someday. I try to be good and set a example for my kids watching me from Heaven. So THANK YOU MOMMA for every single thing you do for me! I wish everyday that I will someday be as amazing as you are. I love you mommy. Forever and Always
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Thats When I Look to You
(This post is dedicated to my inspiration, Jesus Christ and my Heavenly Father)
Lets get right to the point, despite the way I may come off to people, I am not as self-sonfident as people think. OK, I dont think that was the point but its what I want to begin with; I often find myself doubting my abilitys or my physical appearence or even my faith. I give my everything to all that I attempt but it doesnt always go as planned. Sometimes I have to lose.
My faith tends to shake but it never breaks. I am constantly telling myself to never give up. Reminders like "People starving in African countries dont complain" or the ever popular "you can do this!" are some phrases that keep me going. I like to find inspiration, I LOVE the idea of helping and service and putting others before myself. Its the least I could do.
Whenever I find my self doubting or heading into trouble I pray. I LOOK TO GOD. I know He is always there for me and when I make a mistake I know the way to regain the trust and Spirit is to give service for "...when ye are in the service of your fellow men ye are only in the service of your God.."
I try to look to those people who are good examples to me, to the people who love me, to the ones who inspire me. Whether they are friends, family, a celebrity. or even a stranger, I want to be a better me. But I cant do it alone, I need the help of my Savior and my God. That is why when I feel like giving up or spiraling down I look at You and I find all the reasons to keep going.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Childs Play.
(I need to get this blogging thing down, as in keeping up with it!!)
Last night I babysat for s sister in my ward. It was one of those jobs where you always learn something new that is one of the greatest life lessons ever. I learned the serious importance of being kind to everyone, especially family.
Well let me tell you some background info first. The family consisted of four girls (one of whom became an angel at a very young age) and the youngest, one beautiful baby boy. The girls were the only ones awake when I arrived and we played in the front yard for the majority of the time. We were playing and running around with the wagon up and down the driveway. It was a complete blast, the girls all got along and laughed. This was my first epiphany of the great knowledge, these little girls got along the whole time, they never fought or said one mean thing. I tried to remember a time when I allowed myself to be as sweet and humble as a child, it was hard.
] The second realization came when one of the girls, the oldest, got a splinter in the palm of her hand. She was in a lot of pain from it and her little sisters were there to comfort her the second we began pulling it out. It was a little thing but they cared sooo much that she was okay. I wanted even more to have child-like perfection.
The biggest and most heart touching moment all night was when it came time to go to bed. They all piled in to the same room but this is were the arguing began. The oldest and the youngest were fighting so the oldest left to go to a different room. I let her have her time to cool down while I put the middle and youngest asleep. Then I went to visit Sabrina. She was curled into a little ball and was singing a primary song. Our conversation brought me to tears but it was one of the strongest moments ive ever had. It went as follows:
Me: "Sabrina, Are you okay dear?"
Sabrina: "Lauren is just being SO dumb. She never learns to be nice!"
Me: "Well shes only three years old, she doesnt know any better. She loves you though, so if you nicely tell her to stop singing so you can sleep she will most likely stop"
Sabrina: "She will never stop! She always does this!"
Me: " I promise you that if you be the good example she will follow you. I know its the hardest thing ever to be the oldest sister but think of how amazing you are at it. Sabrina you make me so proud everytime I come over, you want to keep that up dont you?"
Sabrina: "yes..." *shyly looks away because lauren walks in to change her shirt*
"lauren I am sorry I called you dumb." *They hugged and I tucked them both back in
This little convo made me humble myself enough to realize that I should be taking my own advice. It IS very hard to be the oldest, but I know theres a reason I was born first, its because He knew I can handle this.
The final thing I said to them was " Sweet dreams my angel sisters." They looked at me with the most precious faces and said "Camille is our angel and She will give us the good dreams." they smiled and instantly fell asleep. I just stood there in the dark tearing up at the fact that these young beautys could be so bonded over one of there sisters, I decided I should carry there angelic peace with me from now on. Their simple childs play spoke to my heart in ways bigger than any adult ever could. And I am so grateful.
Last night I babysat for s sister in my ward. It was one of those jobs where you always learn something new that is one of the greatest life lessons ever. I learned the serious importance of being kind to everyone, especially family.
Well let me tell you some background info first. The family consisted of four girls (one of whom became an angel at a very young age) and the youngest, one beautiful baby boy. The girls were the only ones awake when I arrived and we played in the front yard for the majority of the time. We were playing and running around with the wagon up and down the driveway. It was a complete blast, the girls all got along and laughed. This was my first epiphany of the great knowledge, these little girls got along the whole time, they never fought or said one mean thing. I tried to remember a time when I allowed myself to be as sweet and humble as a child, it was hard.
] The second realization came when one of the girls, the oldest, got a splinter in the palm of her hand. She was in a lot of pain from it and her little sisters were there to comfort her the second we began pulling it out. It was a little thing but they cared sooo much that she was okay. I wanted even more to have child-like perfection.
The biggest and most heart touching moment all night was when it came time to go to bed. They all piled in to the same room but this is were the arguing began. The oldest and the youngest were fighting so the oldest left to go to a different room. I let her have her time to cool down while I put the middle and youngest asleep. Then I went to visit Sabrina. She was curled into a little ball and was singing a primary song. Our conversation brought me to tears but it was one of the strongest moments ive ever had. It went as follows:
Me: "Sabrina, Are you okay dear?"
Sabrina: "Lauren is just being SO dumb. She never learns to be nice!"
Me: "Well shes only three years old, she doesnt know any better. She loves you though, so if you nicely tell her to stop singing so you can sleep she will most likely stop"
Sabrina: "She will never stop! She always does this!"
Me: " I promise you that if you be the good example she will follow you. I know its the hardest thing ever to be the oldest sister but think of how amazing you are at it. Sabrina you make me so proud everytime I come over, you want to keep that up dont you?"
Sabrina: "yes..." *shyly looks away because lauren walks in to change her shirt*
"lauren I am sorry I called you dumb." *They hugged and I tucked them both back in
This little convo made me humble myself enough to realize that I should be taking my own advice. It IS very hard to be the oldest, but I know theres a reason I was born first, its because He knew I can handle this.
The final thing I said to them was " Sweet dreams my angel sisters." They looked at me with the most precious faces and said "Camille is our angel and She will give us the good dreams." they smiled and instantly fell asleep. I just stood there in the dark tearing up at the fact that these young beautys could be so bonded over one of there sisters, I decided I should carry there angelic peace with me from now on. Their simple childs play spoke to my heart in ways bigger than any adult ever could. And I am so grateful.