Dance Camp/ Girls Camp

This summer I have been doing plenty of travelling and dancing. Here are a few pictures from just two camps I went to, perhaps the ones I had the most fun at.


Me and a few of my dear freinds, ciara halliday, becca holmes, morgan lamoreaux, and isabelle thayer.

I finally made it up the hill on a hurt knee!

Almost there....

Newbie initiation !

Random.

The four new girls (:
As you can see I have had a wonderful,activity filled summer. Only three weeks left and theyre going to be filled with practice. (:

Heaven or Hell?

Sometimes I feel like I deserve to go to hell. I'll say something or do something that makes me so miserable I feel the only way for me to be punished is to go to hell. I know everyone makes mistakes but some mistakes are harder to quit or even own up to. If you had told me half the things this year has brought I would have been thrilled and so excited to begin embarking these new adventures, but if you had told me the other half, the rotten, sin-seeking half, I would have ran away. I've found myself wishing that I could give up things I love just to be able to save myself from the mistakes and guilty pain that comes from those sins.

I dont understand either how I can be surrounded in a sea of good people and be completely lured in by the power to do good yet I turn around and plunge head first into a complete and utter mess of a life.

In the picture below I feel as though I am living in the middle of these two worlds, when my better half decides to be good I follow but when the devil holds my hand I find myself not wanting to let go.



The lure of both is so strong and I truly do want to make it to Heaven but unless I am sent an angel in disguise I'll continue to camp on the border. For I cant do this alone. Help me..

Thoughts and Impulses

Have you ever thought that the things you think are the thoughts that make you think about thoughts about thinking?

Don't worry, I don't get it either. In fact I just made it up as I wrote it! But it got your brain flowing didn't it? That's all I need. Recently I have been reading a book about the teenage brain. This book talks about all sorts of ways our brain can make us teenagers do things that adults wouldn't normally do on impulse. For instance, yelling at our parents or even getting annoyed with a friend. When I first started reading the book I was expecting it to talk about all the things wrong with my brain but as I got farther into it I realize it's starting to defend teens, give us a method to all our madness. Back to the impulse thing, I know fir a fact that half the way I act in life is in impulse. When I have conversations I am always on radar with myself to be sure I don't slip a rude or insulting comment. Just as in conversation I think watching our thoughts is just as important. My friend Kaylee always tell me that if you say and think your ugly then you may as well be. How true! And what a great example that is to my point; THOUGHTS CONTROL ACTIONS!

Whenever I think about something it typically cones true. If I say I'm going to get an A I do but it works the opposite way too. If I think that I will have a bad day at practice, I most likely do. As a teeneger Ive found that I act a lot less than I react, meaning I go off on impulse rather than thinking about and coming to a solution. Impulses I have been having lately are good ones. I have been trying to be a better version of me. Perhaps this is because I want to improve myself for God, perhaps I am improving myself for a crush, I'd perhaps I simply just want self contentment. To me, all three of those things are my main reasons to watch my thoughts and not react on impulse.

Happy Mothers Day

Happy Mothers Day everyone! Today Is mothers day. I want to record my feelings about my amazing mother and all she she does for me. I can't thank her enough for all that she does. All moms make sacrifices, especially my momma, she works so very hard so that I can have nice things. She only wants what's best for me and all though we don't always get along she has an unconditional love for me. I often think, What did I do to deserve such a good mom? And today I discovered the answer; I did nothing to deserve her. Today I found that I have an amazing mother as a gift from God. I Iearned that my mom is here to set an example for me and that it can be taken away. To me a mother is someone whom we love no matter what and some one who we want to make proud. A gift I want to give my momma this mothers day is not that of a material item, it's going to be me, living a kind Christ like life. I am going to make my mom feel good about herself knowing that all she has taught me has not gone to waste.

I love my Mom sooooooo much. It can be a struggle to show that love but I know she loves me right back and feels my love for her. The sacrifices my mother have made for me are ones I hope I can pay her back with giving to my future kids. We also celebrate this day for all the things are mothers teach us. If it weren't for these lessons I learn from my mommy I would not know how to act and prepare to be a mom someday. I try to be good and set a example for my kids watching me from Heaven. So THANK YOU MOMMA for every single thing you do for me! I wish everyday that I will someday be as amazing as you are. I love you mommy. Forever and Always